Kinda Dilemma

Assalamualaikum. How's life, dude? Tonight I'll post something yang ada sangkut-pautnya with my future life nanti. Mau mulai dari mana yah? Hm, gini deh, when you were 6, you wanted to be what? A teacher, a police, a soldier, or a commonly dream, a doctor? Saya sih, dokter. I didn't know why I choose doctor at that time. When my dad or my mom or my auntie asked me, " hey kid, what's your aspire later?" and definately I am going to answer doctor. But for right now, when the single person asks me something like that, Idk right why suddenly I became confuse. Particularly when they ask me about mau masuk kuliah mana nanti, mau ambil jurusan apa nanti. I don't truly certain about that. Doctor? But I think I must compete with the thousand people, or even millions for entering that one. Ugh, what a sucks feeling. Tapi, entah kenapa lately I interested about all about International world. Yea, like ambassador. I like seriously always jealous, feel a lot of envious with somebody who works on that part. I am so excited for learning about international relation. But, in the other side, I still dreaming to become a doctor, a special obstetrician. Aaaaaaaaaah and now I am scared. Really truly deeply madly scareeeeeeed:''''( This makes me dilemma. On the horns of dilemma tho, yikes! Help me God!!!!! Yes, I know right, as time goes by it would be happen to me, too. And it is indeed, so it has been happening to my entire life. I just realized it when I was in the first grade of high school, excatly right now! And it really really happens to me. Makes me confused, makes me worried, and even makes me scared. Every single day of life, I always think bout that. Also, it has been my necessity before I go to bed at night, spending a little time of mine to muse that silly thing. Maybe, it was due to my sane demand. I don't know well. But for sure, God always on my side to beyond this. Aamiin :)